in a coffee

When life looks too perfect to be lived… or just the worst thing to face, "i’m waiting for another sunday to come when the sky is blue and nothing can take me away from you…"

hopefully it’s true!

aFter the election, we’re gonna have a little fun… plus a little sad-feeling… plus a little disstress…

Okay… i just checked my cell’s inbox… one of them is about the LPJ-LBR-things… i didn’t have enough ‘esia talk time’ to call him… so i decided to wait for his call… i’m not gonna sleep early… i wish i could… but i have to do something, my assignment… and my speech for nederlands course tomorow!

But actually something has to be done… which is my rmi-dicom-thing. Still waiting for my friend to teach me about this… cause i’m desperately not in a mood for this…

okay… this week is so damn great week, after the election which is not really election… (cause we decided to have one candidate) we have a new "KAHIMP" for the next period, and we’re gonna have an event for the freshmen which is PMB… and there will be another event that i’m gonna miss but cause i have to be in another place… leave this Jakarta-sin-city (where i can find 24 hours minimart and 24 hours coffee shop and 24 hours party people and 24 hours people pray… such an irony!)…

okay… just put a spell on me so that i’ll be hipnotized to past the next to years in dutch… i think it canbe easier… hehe’… just put a spell on me so i can have kinda amnesia or something like losing my short term memory… haha’ so it can be easier to live my next two years without friends like you…( it’s for you… 2004!)…  cause you know… i’m glad to be in class with all of you… and i thank God for giving me such a great friends…

Just don’t put any spells on me so i will keep a lot of capture of friends in my brain…! Just don’t put any spells so i can reach all of you in my mind!

You know…  to feel losing somebody is kinda proof that i’m still part of this human being… i’m glad to have that feeling… cause i will know that i’m part of this human interaction… like go go dools said in IRIS "when everything seems like a movie… yeah you bleed just to know you’re alive!"

… well, i don’t have to bleed… just lose something… like i lost someone two years ago… then the spot has been replaced though actually there will be no real replacement cause it was no replacement cause i never compare anything,… but this is just the best thing in life… i just lost something that i can’t replace. Everything seems like a movie in last 3 years…

What’s happiness to you? Uuuhhmmm… feeling like the real human in the world such a serial drama,  i think!

I still have more 3 weeks here to enjoy everything especially to enjoy my assignment!!! OKAY… MAYBE WE NEED A SPELL… MAYBE NOT… DEPENDS ON HOW HARD LIFE CAN BE, OR WHAT KIND OF SERIAL DRAMA WE LIVE!  don’t be such an idiot… better feel the earth move than unconsiously wake up in the end of storm!

—puh… sometimes we just need to write something…!

I made this post when the dvd player "kapot",,,, (still learning to speak nederlands well…)

I made a post about aqualung lyrics in previous post. Gue menyebutnya awesome karena sangat desperately berharap…

and it is said

"i put a spell on you… you’ll fall asleep, i’ll put a spell on you… and when i wake you i’ll be the first one you see and you’ll realize that you love me…"

…yang menggambarkan perfectly desperate, sampe harus put a spell on her… he can only watch her world from afar… he’s been trying huhuhuhu sedih! great song!!!!

jadi pengen nonton wickerpark…