in a coffee

Dah lama gak nulis2 blog. Padahal di sini otak gue berkembang… katanya sih begitu… ya nggak tau juga ya… Makin ada internet kenceng malah makin jarang ngisi2 blog. Kerjanya nge-youtube aja sama check2 facebook. Gue kembali ke track RNRM, entah kenapa ni lagu kayak magic yang gak pernah bosen gue dengerin. Sejak gue beli cdnya pertama sekitar 4-5 bulan lalu sampe sekarang masih jadi yang paling sering gue dengerin. Dari jaman php bikin bizmag, java bikin simulasi, ampe sekarang bikin c# nya SE, gue masih sering coding sambil dengerin tiap tracknya. Kadang-kadang kalo dah nyampe track 12 udah goyang2 ga jelas sambil coding… kalo gak gue puter ZATPP yang baru trus ikutan nyanyi2… kalo nggak gue bikin playlist yang isinya distorsi-minded kayak the sigit, vincent vega, the adams… selalu kangen masa-masa workholic-nya terutama setelah berhasil… hehehe…

Sejak di NL gue memang kehilangan tempat curhat colongan. Tidak seperti di bawah himpunan yang banyak orangnya, atau di kosan yang ada tetangga gue temen begadang, atau di telpon when i talk to si beler penghilang karpet mobilnya sendiri… (ketika sedang mencuci mobil bersama pacarnya… duet maut dah!) dan semua hal-hal baik dan buruk gue simpen aja deh buat cerita-cerita, atau dialihkan k etdur siang… (kebo!)

Ya… akhir-akhir ini memang gak begitu asik, selaen karena ada beberapa hal yang membuat gue cukup shocked… (oh jadi gini posisinya…! baru tau gue!), juga karena annoying rutin (wah yang ini mah tinggal diketawain aja deh….), juga karena schoolarship yang cuma keluar sebulan (yang ini gak bisa diapa-apain lagi). Jadi… dari semua itu terutapa yang pertama, gue jadi belajar pentingnya berkomunikasi dan berdiskusi yang intelek ala si beler…(nih guru gue untuk yang satu ini…). Thanx to ormawa dan any affiliation yang pernah gue datengin baik untuk singgah d menetap karena telah mengajarkan gue bagaimana cara tahan banting dan nggak fragile. (Terutama tahan dibanting-banting…)…

Dan gue belajar banget ternyata untuk menjadi modest itu susah… terutama setelah anoying routine yang gue dapet almost everyday… dan belajar nggak semu yang lo denger itu bener. Belajar bagaimana jadi pendengar yang baik rather than to be a good story teller… (wah… huehehehe… pengen ketawa…), belajar untuk tidak merasa pintar dan tidak membodohi diri sendiri (based on experience)…, belajar menghargai diri sendiri dengan kerja keras…, belajar menjadi apa yang gue mau, bukan apa yang orang bilang, belajar untuk jadi USEFUL rather than to be the BEST… belajar apapun dari manapun… dan belajar cisco…(HUEKS….!!!!)

Ya,,, bersyukur banget deh… alhamdulillah

Hari ini gue interview dan begitu menikmati, meskipun nantinya gak diterima atau diterima, pokoknya gak peduli hasilnya gimana, at least gue mengalami interview dan sebagai satu experience untuk interview lainnya.

But that happiness turned into bitterness when i remember what happened yesterday, then i can’t even say anything… terserah, terserah… cuma terserah… what can i do? I told them thousands times but it looked like i did not existed. Trus gue bisa apa? Terus gue bisa apa? Terus gue bisa apa? I tried to communicate and synchronize the frequency, but it seemed like they blocked the message. Lagi-lagi terserah, terserah lo maunya apa… terserah… TERSERAH!

Yes i’m stupid but i’m not that stupid!

what she’s done, i was not sure. Terrible-fake-automatic coffee machine, fed her with terrible cappucino. She was the ristretto, bitter than ristretto. Draw the night, draw it black.

I was lost, in the midle of the city where she lived. where nobody knew her. where nobody wanted her. she was like my black sky, my black moon and black stars. a place where i couldn’t find anything but black. cause she’s the black.

yesterday : i was in a bad mood to feel the earth move… but i was happy.. happy like hell!

Besok gue ujian ccna1,… i’m not in a good mood to study… jadi inget ujian jarkom open book di kampus dulu… i tried to study but i couldn’t then i went to coffee bean with the big fehrouzan book… asked the barista to give me a cup of hot cappucino… next 2 hours i ordered hot chocolate… (cause too much coffee will kill you…), came home at 7… and enjoyed my sleepless nite with my friend to study again… wuaaaaahhh…

Kalo lagi gak da kerjaan gini, suka ngebayangin indo… and all the best people there… katanya lagi pada bingung RTI, terlibat sama unpredictable Pak Gatot… ada yang lagi gak semangat… ada yang esmosi, sebaliknya ada yang lagi seneng… kayaknya himpunan lagi adem ayem… abis lebaran dan capek2 sahur on the road…

Juga ngebayangin sepupu-sepupuku… hehehe…. setelah ngakak-ngakak liat uploadnya di youtube… sangat tidak senonoh… wekwekwek…

dan setelah ini gue harus kembali merefresh otak gue dengan protokol-protokol layer2 model TCP/IP…. WUAH I’M NOT AS BUSY AS I WAS IN JAKARTA… lari sana-sini di himpunan, bolak-balik ke lantai 8, melototin coding semaleman, having a nice conversation with rista, makan2 SKI, dan makan roti bakar tawakal tengah malem… (wuah di diemen gak da roti bakar… sapa juga yang mu keluar dingin2 gini… kalo gak penting)… but i enjoy this…

Okay… mari kita putar saja Rock n Roll Mafia… dan lanjut ke DHCP, ARP, RARP… (wekS!!!) atau bikin playlist dulu aja yah… let see should i listen to any post rock band? or just listen to simple peterpan? Oh… kali ini perlu distorsi… let’s put vincent vega on my tracks!

then enjoy the sleepless-cisco-nite… semoga Allah membukakan pikiran gue…! Amin!

injected my self with shogazing-thing… coffee, in rainbow radiohead… then trying to end it with said sadly… where Nina Gordon sings…

JI: You should know that I love you
We should love like lovers do
And I can’t help but fall for you
Ah honey I’m just a fool
Now you know

NG: Darling, I’ll never be true
You see, for so long I was blue
JI: (I’m not the only one)
NG: And if I hurt, then you will, too
Ah honey I always lose
Now you know

J+N: Lover, when will you?
JI: I’m so afraid that no one cares
J+N: Lover, can’t find you
JI: I swear to God don’t leave me here
J+N: Now you know

J+N: Oh, you know that it can’t be
But no one else here really means
JI: (Anything to me)
J+N: If you hurt inside
If you confide in me again

NG: Since you ran away
JI: Hold me now, tell me how
Love is ours

J+N: Lover, when will you?
I’m so afraid that noone cares
Lover, can’t find you
And no one knows what brings us here
Lover
JI: Hold me now
NG: Hold me now
JI: Tell me how
J+N: Love is ours

Solaire should probably be labeled ‘post rock’, but those who expect the typical sound of Godspeed… and the likes might be surprised. Solaire tends to keep their songs shorter, compacter and more easily accessible. Their music sounds like a fresh new mix of bands like Mogwai, Radiohead, Sigur Ros, Explosions in the Sky and Modest Mouse.

taken from : http://www.solairemusic.com/index.php?page=bandinfo

easily kill your self… (kalo ga kuat iman)

marche’la void : Indonesia

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uOtJNWYvZxw

solaire : Rotterdam - Netherland

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WupXq1fO3fo

mogwai : England

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V0uSrV2L2yU

explosions in the sky : Texas USA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36U4ez7AzKA

sigur ros : Eslandia

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atmJVhUBrYI&mode=related&search=

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EqWEkam9H4w

All angels gone : France

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7BVjjWsmNH4

Katanya ini Post rock atau experiemental… tapi katanya lagi mogwai tidak begitu suka dibilang post rock…, kalo penasaran silahkan buka dulu yang indo… dan harap sabar dalam mendengarkan lagunya… apapun genre-nya kalo lo suka ya hajar ajah…

selamat menikmati!

Ternyata genre-nya post rock. Terserah mau post rock,shoegaze, or any other genres… Just try to listen every beat of these music to synchronize with my heart beat!

Okay… this is my latest track…

1. Sigur Ros - Nothing song

2. Sigur Ros - hoppipolla

3. Stone Roses - elephant stone

4. Park Drive

5. Rock ‘n Roll Mafia - Question

6. Pure Saturday - spoken

7. Zeke and The Popo - Mighty Love

8. Keane - what a wonderful world

9. Stone Roses - i wanna be adored

10. Travis - Re-offender

11. Homogenic

12. Tika - under their feets

Huuu…. those are wonderfull sounds!

TRY TO SAVE EVERY WONDERFUL FEELING EACH DAY!

Hey… my first blog written in Netherland!!! How are you, my blog? Long time no write any words here…

I can celebrate today as my 1st month in Netherland, with 9 other indonesian existente students… but its gonna be celebrated as rush week with examp, assignment, cisco-thing… and i still miss the greatest people on earth… 2004!!! (how can’t i miss them!!!)

When life looks too perfect to be lived… or just the worst thing to face, "i’m waiting for another sunday to come when the sky is blue and nothing can take me away from you…"

hopefully it’s true!